Read her post make a long post about something that bothers you MysticVeggeto.
Axe I remeber that because we talked before I meant no desrepect I said that because ACE is the leader of my clan thats all.You seem like a cool guy.Besides forums are fun.
Ok I'll Rant,but it'll be long..I think.
I awaken from my sleep each morning searching through my mind a purpose or a simple urge to want to achive greatness.I open my eyes to only see the darkness in my room that seems to be the same darkness in my heart that binds my soul.I hear a whine a whine of my only true conpainion..my dog.
I leave my quarters each day to free my dog from his jail.He doesn't seemto be happy to see me,but to know he is free from the bars that confine him.When I free him he runs around then he jumps at me so I can catch him with my hands.Almost as though he wants a huge or some form of affection.He looks at me as though I'm his mother even though I did deliver him into this world wth my hands.
I never felt a mothers love.My mother never showed that to me.She exclaimed that she was never shown affection as a child how could she ever know how to show it to me.I cried....yes I cried from the idea of never knowing a hug...I hugged my mom,but she pushed away......after that I pushed her away ever since....(In a mind sense)
I never felt the same after those days....My father was never home,and my sister was,an still has a mental illness.I blame myself how she became sick in the mind.Even though she was born that way from my mom smoking,and drinking at the time...She didn't make the same mistake with me.
The thing about my dad was this he abused me when he was drunk.I never hit him back because he was my birth father.Later he became ill,an almost passed.Once he understood I cared about him at his time of need more than anyone....he changed after that.He never hit me again,and he give up smoking.Sad to say he started to be a good father when....I never saw him much after that because of his line of work.
I never got the love I needed from my mom,but got plenty from my Dog,Girlfriends,cousins.I didn't say friends because all my true friends died,or moved away or betrayed me by becoming one of my enemies.Over the years i became a great fighter,but not a friendily person to guy type friends.
Now your wondering I'm friends with SBYRD5.Well I consider you guys in a talking sense my friends,but I don't think you would take a beating for me.So a continue my thoughts of anger at.....those that hurt me,and really simply my hurt fulled life.....
I think thats a rant how was that.
