heh, bah !!
well.. its true.. i have been pushing myself quite a bit l8tely (not food wise, but, sleep sure as #### had to go)...
and yes... some of the threads on the forum have been gettin to me, i mean, i can look the other way and laugh most of the time, but everyone has their limits :biggrin:
*psst* (chuggin down beer)... right, where was i ??
i'm glad there are still people here who have my back, and DO appreciate my work, all of u is the reason why i'm still doing this, and why i will CONTINUE to do this for as long as possible
as for takin breaks and "having fun" ?? well.. let me put it this way, for every hour that i work, i MAYBE have 10 min of fun (if i'm lucky)... other times i'm kicking things, or doing grunt-work (ie: hunting down frames of animation, or starin' @ pixels all day)...
most people here have NO idea what it takes to do this, its insane... the server crashes/dies every few days (@ times) .. (yeah, i know lefty, linux is u'r answer for everything, my bad bro...)
i have billions of bugs on my list, and some make my head hurt when i even try to think of how to fix em...
most of the things that i "plan" never go the way i plan them
i randomly think of release dates, then bust my ass to make them... things that should take a long of time usually dont, and instead, i spend hours upon hours fixing the dumbest problems
hey... its life, and its not the first time i tried to create a "community" online
if u want something done, u have to give it all u've got... sittin on u'r ass watchin the TNG marathon on TNN 24/7 is great, but nothing ever gets done that way
in the end of the day, i open up my email or read the forum... and whenever i read "this is great" comments from the users, i feel like i can go on programming a whole week without sleep, and all the pain the past seems worth... other times, all u read is bitchin... and thats when i "snap" :biggrin: