[SBYRD5]

I regret ever stop chatting with myoriginal friends here in the community.

SSJKarma,Roll,ZeroEna,AkumaForever,DXZero,AXE,Mast aq.

Those where my original people.LOL No one liked any ofus at first.

I was harrassed along with those people I named......Mastaq was put down when he was known as "Dark Masta".

Roll and ZeroEna weren't liked because they were a net couple.

SSJKarma wasn't liked at the time bcause he was hard to understand.

AkumaForever I forgot why he was outkasted...but I do know the lot ofus banded together in Random Insanity. We began o make it our playground.

The way we looked at it was "Well if they will critize everything I say then I'll be in a section where I ca't be critized."

And thus mini games begun.

Then RPGs...to be honest I never Role Played Online....I just watched and since I wasn't welcomed anywhere else I sorta joined in.


LOL we had our own Radio Show once.

Soon all ofus noobs of 2002 banned together and we began to show even though we were younger than the older members..that were....oddily teenagers near adult hood.

Our views counted we mattered.

You know you guys are lucky very lucky to have registered in 03 ad 04.

Because in 02 if you were a new person you got bashed hard....

Some people actually left from getting picked on......

Believe it or not I was a victim at the time I didn't know all these people I know today at the time no one.

Then these select few showed me true kindness....*sigh*

A kindness that has been since unmatched.No one here today has yet matched the kindness of those people......none.

I mess those days it was a feeling I got from you people then it was pleasant.It felt like each day was a dream I really loved the community more than air then.

I had little to no life at home my family....I come from a broken home I don't want to talk about that.

Well I had a ruff childhood....so this place was my first internet experience boy was I amazed.

I never knew of forums.

All of the 01 people seemed so wize to me back then....some were down right cruel,and what's so funny is today I hang aroung the members who use to dog me.

LOL Like these names....

Kingryu1,Weezer,Asshole,KKS,Nantuko Joe,J-Luna,Physicals R' Scary,

Thats just a few.

It's funny they gave me hell back then....and today they all seem like my best bros.

When I think about it I was seen as the MVSSF MEMBER most Naive-princevegetam

From my crazy opinions half spelled. To my proposals to Joyti. I really think everytime I did these things I thought....maybe I would fit in better....maybe I could have some happiness here...

Eventually Poetry readings started and I discovered I was a poet....

And then we had a drawing contest.....yeah I basicly won that.

And when I think back I was a sensative guy.....I always said everything from my heart.....I can't even cry these days even if I were dicing green onions.

Stop sayin I'm great....=/

I think personally I'm not really anything great.

Everything I've done or have achived is no more than luck.

My intelligence is not "without Flaw."

I don't like who I am now.

One day I was making fun of Roll with my Ex Girlfriend and I realized I had become a true Jackass.

*sigh*

And I guess I owe an "I'm sorry" to Saijin Ryu.

I had the idea for "The Clique" Banners. It was Saijin Ryu Who actually made them.

So it's his credit....I just put ideas in his head.....shame he didn't get the credit he deserved.

LOL, when I think about it. I promised comics to the community.After waitnessing how Warmor failed. Then it became clear to me I had no right to downsize Warmor....I was completely in the shadow of even how to begin the stages of making comics.

AXE told me a secert about him an Roll and I broke my promise recentily.

I lied about almost everything with me I'm no more than a shell....I don't even begin to be where I say I've been.

And I can't seem to change I'm going to continue to lie because it's now who I am.

I'm no longer pure......I'm far from innocent.... And at times I don't even believe god is even around.

I've been easily influenced....thats not the mark of a champion....or a leader.

And to be real if I meet any of you now I wouldn't greet you with a warm hug....

Maybe the old SBYRD5 would've....I miss who I was when I was 14....sure I knew less.

but I wasn't far from pure...

I had a soul then.

It seems like now I have to carry that weight....



Edited By SBYRD5 on June 18 2004 at 22:03