[m0u5y]

oh no i know how he feels. he cares but in the wrong way. he needs me cuz i can offer him stuff. and not what you think lol cuz he aint ever getting that. but anywho... this is a phone conversation with him... bla bla bla... silence.. bye.
maybe at the beginning he did kinda care... but his "caring" is the only way he can keep me. so its just a giant plot to keep the best thing that came into is life constant. i mean, how many 17 year old juniors can say they are going out with 19 year old college sophomore... well almost junior lol. I mean when i turn 20 hell still be 17 for 2 days! I wont see him next semester cus ill leave for japan for 6 months and he might leave for cali this summer. his temper is that of a rabid dog and i mean, this is where an abusive relationship begins. i mean, he doesnt hesitate to elbow me and actually FIGHT me. the guy has a distorted perception of caring and well, i understand but this is too much. we are from 2 different worlds and .. fairy tales just are that.. fairy tales. what he needs is a girl that doesnt care for him but only wants his pants. caring is a luxury he cannot handle lol. but im happy now. i came to the conclusion that im better without him and i should persue someone else lol. i know i deserve better (i never thought i would say this) and will have no trouble finding the person for me. ^_^ im extatic to know that i can get a guy, and a cute one at that. now i just gotta make sure that he aint an a hole. ^_^ ok well its over. now i just need to get my stuff back... his ego is so big... almost as big as mine lol. so well, maybe it was just phisical attraction and the little macho dumbass thing going on and i learned, er.. yeah attitude makes a big difference. not to say im not still gonna go for a hottie lol. ^_^ NO MORE CHARITY! WEEEEEEEEE. lets party!