If you hurt yourself......man I feel like my life is wasting away everyday now.....being afraid is just stupid.....roll if your trying to protect me your just...making it worst...what happen to me was harsh....but I'm getting help....

Karma, Sbyrd, Everyone else that was concerned, I thank you. But, I can assure you, Sbyrd, and Karma, that I'll be fine after some.... time. Of course, some things will never heal, so I'll just live with it. But, remember, what I do, I do out of responsibility for who and what I am, and for a few other reasons which I will keep to myself for at least one more night.

Asshole & his accomplices: What I am doing is something you would never copmprehend, or even want to comprehend. It's just.... something that would blow your mind. Also, this thread was actually something to express their feelings, and, I guess after thinking about it... you guys can ask and act like it is stupid because you were and still are clueless.
And to think I was going to crush your heads and suck out your guts so I could boil them in a nice, large pot. *giggles*

Roll . . . I don't know what you are doing, and I don't even know if I want to. But I can guess the ballpark it's in. Don't do it, whatever it is, for as SBYRD said, you're only making matters worse. If you hurt yourself to heal an already gradually healing state, there will be no gain. Roll, listen to us . . . please. If SBYRD is unwilling, you will only make matters worse.
And SBYRD, I don't know what's go'n on in your life right now, but I'm here to talk to.

I'm not feeling as bad as I felt..that day..I'm fine.

I pray that you are, man. And Roll . . . please. He says he's fine, and besides . . . you're of much more use to use alive! :) ;) ???

Man . . . i'm writing a song about this. Kinda.

Oh... Razz, the things I do are dangerous, and they are risky, but they are with cause. To be honest, sometimes, I wish to stop what I am doing so I can just live in peace. But, I can't just stop what I am doing because it could harm me to the point of death. That would just be avoiding the inevitable.

And besides, what I do effects many other than myself. It never matters who... it just does.



Edited By Roll on Feb. 07 2003 at 01:44

Then let's all work at it. It may only be on the internet, but we could still at least TRY to work things out! Roll, you may not want to, but please PM me about what it is you "do" and the risks and so on. I would really like to help.

And for all the other crued and ignorant guys that are flaming this topic . . . yes, this is only over the internet and you might think it's stupid, but it's REAL FREAKING PEOPLE we're talking about, dammit!

well....what I do.... it's actually very real. But...

Yes, and I don't doubt it one bit.

i agree, a lot of you guys and girls lacks the comprehension of certain things... can't say i was happy to know what she was doing on her side ! but even tho my own comprehension of it is so little compared to her. i still believe it !

but what you were doing while mastaq was in hospital !
it was real you know, it made me think about what could have hapenned if anything had gone wrong ! we could have never seen you again roll... all i'm saying is take care of yourself first... not that i want you to not help others again, i just want to be sure what you do doesn't affect your own health ! that's all !

BTW... i think RAZZ can understand this... but it is just a choice roll... you decide if you tell him or not !